Day Twenty:

Valentine's Day. Here's what I want. TAKE OUT FOOD! I am frustrated and cranky because all of my standard choices are a no-go for me. That makes me miserable. What used to be great for ordering on a whim or for a special treat has now lost all excitement. I want to scream. Seems ridiculous, I'm sure, but it's yet another moment that sends me right back to day one.  And here I am again, cranky, hungry and really just plain ticked. This day wasn't all bad, it just went downhill around dinner time, which seems to happen a lot lately. If I had to analyze myself, I'd say that I wasn't tearing up about the food (even though  good sesame chicken is something to cry about), it's just been a long day of trying hard to master this very difficult new life. I know, it shouldn't be THAT difficult, but it's kinda like if someone put a button in front of you and tells you you're not allowed to push it. All you want to do is push it and see what happens, and it takes all of your energy to think of ways to avoid pushing that button.

I'm off to drool about a nice (imaginary) french baguette drenched in olive oil  and my yummy (imaginary) lo mein and sesame chicken..... Thank God Ben was here to take over dinner after my meltdown! I guess I'll have to eat his dinner and pretend it's eggplant pizza and an egg roll. ;)

Oh, and on a side note... thank GOD for Ellen, and her Udi's bread. (I LOVE YOU, ELLEN!) I am serious when I say I do NOT know what I would do if I had not been introduced to it. It is THE only bread that actually tastes decent. Life without bread... well, it's my blog title, so obviously it's made a big impact.