Day Fourteen:

Two pounds lighter, still grouchy. I have to say, I'm enjoying eating a little more... the salads and fruit are actually tasting good and making me feel full (finally).  But at the same time, I am still encountering many, many circumstances where I want a food that I cannot have. A bite of this, and a taste of that. Ugh!  In spite of that, I've managed to find something new that tastes, yes, GOOD! Betty Crocker GF Chocolate Chip Cookies have made it to the top of my list, I'm happy to report. It's about time I tasted a normal dessert that doesn't taste like GF white bread.  Woohoo!  The texture is still very different... picture a normal cookie, 3 days old (crumbly and dry) and you've got yourself a fresh baked GF cookie!! But I'm going to take this recipe under my wing and learn how to do it right.  Unfortunately, unlike my secret to normal Betty Crocker brownies/cookies (under cook them by at least 8 minutes), GF doesn't work the same way- it will make you sick if it's undercooked.  So it'll be a learning curve.  But I'm up for the challenge here, because everyone knows how badly I need a warm chocolate cookie once in a while.  The mood thing, though, I'm not sure what that's all about.  Even I know that the last balloons have all deflated at my pity party, and I need to move on.  But even though I can rationalize this, I can't seem to get out of the funk that drowns me day to day.  I keep having (literal) dreams about eating things I'm not supposed to eat, which makes me feel anxious that I need to pay more careful attention and make sure I don't "forget" that I have this disease. Ha! That's hysterical. I am way too high strung! I guess that wasn't a Celiac symptom!

Yesterday was a sleepy day, which really surprised me, in that I now realize that I am feeling better.  I took a nap and went to bed at 8:00, which was very, very normal for my day to day life pre-diagnosis. Yet this morning I realized that, wow, that was the first day in almost two weeks that I needed a nap midday! Everything is a puzzle, but the only thing that matters is that I continue to feel better.

Tonight is Vaca Frita night... my all time favorite Cuban meal that I cannot live without. Thank God it's gluten free. I plan to make it a lot.  And by the way, is anyone else disturbed by the fact that Moe's tortilla chips have gluten in them? I am so angry about that! It's a CORN chip. Get a clue, Moe. "The queso is gluten-free, though." Hahaha... yeah, okay, should I just drink it with a straw, then? Ugh... I understand that I was one of them two weeks ago, but I just can't deal with clueless people right now....